#78 -
FIRST TIME THAT I GOT HIGH
Dolores had accused me of smoking weed when I had still lived in her house. Then she had accused me of smoking when i had moved on campus but I had only drank beer, smoked cigarettes and always turned it down. I had always turned down weed whenever I had it offered to me because I had enough shit wrong with me already. I had no idea how the weed would have affected me and I had no interest in finding out. I had began to work with Allie as she had came to the university and would take me to run my errands and to the grocery store. I had already been on academic probation and had known that the dormitory had to be vacated during the upcoming summer so that the college had been able to make repairs, I had no idea where I would end up. I had called a friend and then Delores's ex-boyfriend that had told me to call his sister and when I had talk to her husband. They had known that I would never go back to Delores's house and he had told me that I could stay if I had not messed with his sixteen year old step-daughter. SHE HAD MADE IT VERY HARD AND IT WAS ALSO HARD TO KEEP MY HANDS OFF OF HER! I had managed to follow his wishes, and i had stayed at their house for a few months until Allie had told me that she had a opening in one of her apartments. During that time I had stayed with the family and Allie had continued to take me on my errands, I would ride around with her while she was working with other clients. ONE DAY WE HAD STOPPED AT A PARK, AND SHE HAD TOLD ME THAT SHE HAD WANTED ME TO TRY SOMETHING WITH HER, I HAD BEEN QUICK TO SAY OK BUT IT HAD NOT BEEN WHAT I HAD THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. I had never minded when she had smoked around me as she had always made sure that it had been ok, she had pulled out a little wooden box that I had seen her in before. She had loaded up a little pipe and had told me that she had not wanted me to do what we were about to do with anyone else. She had loaded up a one hitter, and she had told me to inhale and assured me that If I did not like the way that it made me feel then it would be no big deal to tell her. I had been a little uneasy but I had trusted Allie not to give me anything that would be hard on me. I HAD TAKEN A HIT AND HAD FELT NOTHING, AND HAD TOLD HER SO THEN I WAS ABLE TO HEAR A SQUIRREL CHEWING ON A ACORN IN A TREE NEAR BY... THE FEELING HAD BEEN AWESOME AS I HAD NOT KNOWN ANYTHING COULD MAKE ME FEEL THAT GOOD AND I HAD LIKED THE WAY IT HAD SLOWED MY MIND DOWN BUT, SHOWN THAT I COULD BE AT PEACE BUT THE FEELING HAD NOT LASTED LONG.