MY FIRST HAND"S ON MASTABATION EXPERIENCE

 #67 - MY FIRST HANDS ON MASTURBATION EXPERIENCE 

I HAD BEEN TOLD BY MY GRANDMOTHER AFTER SHE HAD CAUGHT ME PLAYING WITH MYSELF THAT THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN HAD BEEN WATCHING ME.  The way in which she had said that had been in an angry tone.   I had only been about 8 or 9 when she had told me that and it had been one of those things that had stuck with me in one way or the other until I was 19.  I use to be a pillow humper and I had gotten really good at it and even though I was no longer afraid of the angels seeing me, I had stuck with the routine through my teens.  THERE IS A VIDEO ON MY WEB SITE WHERE MY PHYSICAL THERAPIST HAD COMMENTED ON THE STRENGTH IN MY GLUTS . I remember how I had been giving a bunch of nu-die  mags and my sister's would barge into the bathroom. I LIKED TO READ ALL TYPES OF BOOKS WHEN I HAD BEEN SITTING ON THE POT.   Trying to catch me masturbating, I had seen the movie SOMETHING ABOUT MARY and even though I had caught the jest of what stiller's character had been doing to the bra adds I had wondered how to do that.  I HAD BEEN MATURE SOMEWHAT AND HAD LEARNED QUITE A BIT ABOUT LIFE THROUGH MY BATTLES WITH MY HEALTH BUT, I HAD NOT BEEN A WELL ROUNDED PIECE OF CLAY TOWARDS THE END OF MY TEENS.  I should have known how to do it but I would learn that my brain and the body had already known .   I was in my dorm room one weekend and my smelly roommate had gone home for the weekend,  I was one of the only guy's on my floor to have cable and I had been very popular on the weekends because of it.  A GIRLS GONE WILD infomercial had came on with the star over their breast and below, it had repeated several time's like those infomercials do.  I had been extremely aroused and had pulled myself out of my pajama-pants,  I had never taken my eyes off of that screen and before I had known it my chest had been wet. 

                     I had not been able to resist the urge so, I would wrestle the neighbor girls.

                                       I had continued to masturbate with my right hand.

THE BAD GIFT

  #68    - THE BAD GIFT

              She had stayed on the floor above  in the dorm and she had hung around a few other girls that my friends and I hung around with.  She had shared a room with one of those girls and she had also known Tonya.   One of the guy's that had been a friend of mine  had warned me about her when she had began to hang out inmy dorm room all that time uninvited..  I remember coming back from a class and found her in my dorm room on my bed and she had been folding up my  clean clothes from the night before when I had done my laundry. The girl had  been a sweet person, one that would make  a guy feel guilty by hurting her feeling's by asking her to leave.  The bitch of it had been that when the girl that I had liked came by she had  always not bothered saying anything to me when ever she had came by my door, when  I had someone  in the room with me.  I HAD ALWAYS KEPT MY DOOR OPEN EVER SINCE THE DEPARTURE OF MY SMELLY ROOM MATE, IT  HAD BEEN EMBARRASSING FOR PEOPLE THAT SMELLED  THE ODOR BECAUSE I HAD BEEN  AFRAID THAT THEY WOULD BLAME IT ON ME.  I HAD NOT BEEN ADDICTED TO WARCRAFT LIKE HE AND I HAD WASHED MY ASS EVERY DAY, HE HAD NEVER LIKED TO GET OFF OF HIS COMPUTER BATHE The girl had spent more and more time in my room and it had gotten to the point where  I had always closed my door.  One day I had decided that by keeping a sleeping bag on my mattress would allow me to avoid having to load my BATMAN sheets into a shopping cart that I had "borrowed" from a store near by, to take the sheets down to the basement containing the washers and dryers hoping that no one would spot my sheets.  I HAD GOTTEN TIRED OF HAVING TO SPEEDILY THROW MY SHEETS IN A MACHINE NOT WANTING ANYONE TO KNOW THAT I HAD SLEPT ON SUCH IMMATURITY.  The girl had offered to help me break in the sleeping bag and I did not know what to say to her besides,"I DID NOT HAVE THE TIME BECAUSE I HAD TO GO AND STUDY."  I WISH THAT I HAD A TIME MACHINE SO THAT I COULD GO BACK TO ALL THE TIMES THAT I HAD REFUSED IT WITH KNOWLEDGE OF KNOWING THAT MY BODY COULD DO THE JOB, I WISH I HAD NOT WAITED  SO LONG TO LOSE MY VIRGINITY!  My friends and I had went to the strip-club often and we also spend time in the Oregon district at a Adult Video Store.  One day in the store I had seen a Dildo that I had bought for the girl as I had no interest in her, but I wanted to be her friend.  I SHOULD HAVE PUT MORE THOUGHT INTO WHAT I HAD BEEN DOING AND TRIED TO SEE HOW IT MAY HAVE EFFECTED HER  BUT, I HAD NOT AND WRITE IT OFF AS ONE OF THE MANY STUPID THINGS I HAD DONE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.  I had got back to the Dorm and I laid the Dildo on her bed, and a few hours later she had opened my door, she had been very angry and threw the Dildo at my head.  I had went up to the girl's floor and asked every girl on the floor if they had wanted the toy because it had cost me $15.00 bucks, finally a girl told me that she would hold on to it.  THE GIRL HAD STAYED MAD AT ME AND WE HAVE NEVER SPOKE AGAIN.